Why do i feel a sense of regrets? I miss that someone. In the process of healing, so many things happened. I dont wanna be the middle person. I dont. But i had to force myself to be there, to listen, to answer. If you are hurt, what am i? Im not made of steel. My heart is of similar to yours. Every night I had to think, think of what will be asked tomorrow. Im not the one escaping. If i were, at least not from you. I dont go through underhand means, I am not the kind of girl you think I am, really. How can i make this through to you? I am so drained, running out of answers to all your questions. If only i could just block those thoughts away. I hope i could.
It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all. Someday never really comes, does it? Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile you suddenly realise you're just pretending you're over him to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours again. I realised, it's so lonely being free.
Missing you isn't the hard part, knowing I once had you is what that breaks my heart. I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, for this place in me where your finger tips still rests.. your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo.. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me. It takes a couple seconds to say hello, but forever to say goodbye.
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