Thursday, May 29, 2008 '
So many tests, finally one last practical tomorrow and it's the holidays! I'm so looking forward to the holidays!
Thursday, May 22, 2008 '
Sometimes life brings more pain than we can bear alone. I guess I'm ready to lead a life on my own and get ahead with life without you. Hopefully life wont change as much without you. If you're reading this, I wish you all the best, with sincerity. I wish we could go back into the past, but seems like, it's impossible. It doesn't actually bother you even if i don't reply/talk to you anymore. If that was puppy love. I regretted being that puppy. Although i never did regret loving you.
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I detest liars like you, you know who you are. Please don't lie to me, knowing it makes my heart hurt. Give me a break please, my heart is fragile. You seem like two souls stuck in one body. It makes me really hard to understand you. I don't wanna find out anything more. Would you just tell me instead of keeping me in the dark?
Wednesday, May 21, 2008 '
This is how i look like when i have insufficient sleep and......
Don't read if you get freaked out about people talking about blood and periods.
Today i went to the doctor's because of my fever and stomach cramps due to my period. When i told the doctor about my menstrual cramps, she checked my stomach by pressing it and almost so hard i felt like vomitting. After that she told me to strip and show her the sanitary pad i was wearing so that she could check whether i had blood clots - - i was shocked by still showed her.
Doc asked "are you sexually active?"
me: no
Doc: Then why are you having cramps?
me: i have no idea that's why i am here. - -
Doc: are you still a virgin?
me: yes, and i am not sexually active.
Doc: i suspect you are pregnant.
me: but i haven't done anything how can i be pregnant?
Doc: Do you have sex?
me: No. i am not sexually active - -
Doc: i suspect your pain comes from the tears after sex.
me: I am a virgin, i havent had sex before. -___-"
Doc: i recommend you to go for a urine test.
me: I havent done it - -, nevermind, urine test now?
Doc: yes *passes me the cup*
i havent had sex how can i be pregnant?! the last time i went to see her for a bad cough she told me i had migraine. now i have menstrual cramps she tells me i am pregnant. ZZZ!
i miss you and cant stop thinking. wonder if you do think about me.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008 '
I feel sick, scammed and spoilt. I'm so lazy to blog about anything that i've been through just past few days. My body is not good at all, never feeling better. I hate to go to the doc. I hate to hear them saying how weak my body is. I realised i've changed just after that one night, changed to someone that i hate. Tomorrow will never be any better. It's still the same whole procedure i have to keep going through.
Thursday, May 15, 2008 '
I didn't know where to turn to, i didn't know who to turn to. But i still found you. Thanks for listening. Tomorrow's friday. My auntie just passed away the day before. I hope she is well over there. Will be going to her funeral tomorrow and perhaps Sunday. Project and revision on Saturday. Stressed! All humans will eventually leave, we shouldn't be sad, should we. Since it's always said they are in a better place.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 '
Maple maple maple=( Is maple all you think of? I told u that I had a bad day yet you didn't even bother to ask me what happened.. Perhaps friends care more then lovers. You used to care so much about me. Where did you go? My heart aches so badly I don't even have space to breathe. Is it true that love hurts? I think i lost a part of me. It's somehow missing and stuck to you but i guess you don't know and won't bother to find it anymore.
give up? don't give up?
Sunday, May 11, 2008 '
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
the sky is falling
rehS says:
REALLY?
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
yea
rehS says:
i wanna eat the clouds!
rehS says:
LoL
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
ahhaha
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
can...
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
i pluck some for u
rehS says:
lol!!!!
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
see i so nice to u lorz
rehS says:
omg so crappy but so cute
rehS says:
lol
rehS says:
sure got ying mou one right
rehS says:
pluck for me le then u wan smth in return!
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
lol
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
what thing?
rehS says:
lol how i know
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
lol
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
i know u gt ying mou
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
i nv say anything lorz
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
u imagine it urself
rehS says:
lol :x
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
i know u like ritez,,
Keith says shermaine is very very very very naughty!! says:
i scarifice la
rehS says:
what sacrifice!! later i put in blog everyone read then u know :x
i sacrificed right??
Saturday, May 10, 2008 '
Went to cousin's place to celebrate mother's day(grandma's). I saw BarBar in a superman clothing! haha. After awhile not sure who removed BarBar's superman clothing and BarBar went crazy playing ball with my cousin and even barked at my cousin when she got the ball. lol! Just ate quite a bit today =)
and you know i still love you.
Thursday, May 8, 2008 '
So everything was a misunderstanding. he said he busy that's why =) and today i got spammed with so many msges from my dearest caring friends asking how i'm feeling. i feel blessed! THANKS ALOT YOU GIRLS AND GUYS! much love!
AND my handphone died on me again.
After school today i went to Sakae with lyn. we couldn finish loads of rice and lyn had to sacrifice her free pencilcase which she got from buying freshmilk! lol! and she had to pretend they were sanitary pads to dispose it in the toilet! lyn is really cute. haha shall post pictures again tomorrow!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008 '
i kept staring at my phone waiting for him to msg me.. he replied so slowly and finally he din reply anymore. sigh. he's a changed person.. he doesn msg me as much as before anymre. he doesn even bother anymore.. thanks di and nili for listening to me yesterday when i felt so lost. i feel that i'm fighting a lost battle. it wont help anymore. i cant stand it and really want to give up.. but i cant bear to cos i cant live without him. i always get hurt, why? did i do smth wrong in my previous life? so i have to pay back now? im all alone and the world's crushing me into pieces.. please tell me it's gonna be okay..
Tuesday, May 6, 2008 '
Everything i wished that would never ever happen just happened to me. Can you just tell me what happened? I dont know what's going on. WHY did it happen to me.. it hurts so bad.. darling tell me why.. im feeling so insecured
Why are u keeping it from me.I'm sorry, all i know what to do now is to cry.
Saturday, May 3, 2008 '
Happy 2nd month darling. you havent smsed me. i think you already forgotten abt our anniversary. i shall wait for your sms..
